I have been a flighty girl since I can't even remember. This can be looked at as good or bad, depending who you ask. When Im in Texas, I wanna be in California...when Im in Cali, I wanna be in Hawaii...When Im in Hawaii, I wanna be with family and friends that don't live there. And so on and so forth. Basically...When Im still, I wanna move. So here I am living the life I have always dreamed of, with the man I always dreamed of, growing the baby I've always dreamed of...and my mind is still going 90 miles a minute...thinkin about where else I wanna go, what else I wanna do, what else I wanna write/say/sing!!!
I have to admit...it can get exhausting! It doesn't help that I met a man who is EXACTLY the same way. I mentioned in an earlier post that we have moved almost every 6 months since we met 4 1/2 years ago...and that is no exaggeration. We will literally be unloading our belongings into the "new place" and having a conversation about how we should get on craigslist and look into this other house/city/state. It can be pretty intense...and sometimes I stop and think..."are we MISSING it?" "are we too busy looking at what else we wanna do, where we wanna go, to REALLY enjoy what we ARE doing and where we ARE now?!" The answer for me...I honestly don't think so. The grass isn't always greener necessarily, it just needs tending too!!
And why not?! This IS it for us...this is our one shot at life...our only chance to be HERE...with each other...CREATING our life together. Our friends roll their eyes at us when we talk of coming and going, because they know that this IS us...this is who we are and what we do. And honestly Im proud of it. Im proud that my husband isn't so consumed by what he drives or how much he makes, that we can't go live in a studio beach shack in Maui. Im proud that I am still, at 27, finishing my degree (the major of which has been changed 4 times thus far...shocker, I know), because I was living/breathing/changing/moving, and couldn't focus all my energy into that at 22. And that is ok.
This is my path...OUR path...and I will be proud to bring our keiki into this kind of lifestyle. If we have our child in southern California, and then decide to move our family back to Hawaii...that's ok. If we decide after getting to Hawaii that we wanna move our family to Oregon/Costa Rica/back to Cali, etc...that's perfectly fine. If we have our babies in California, and decide to buy a home and raise our family here...so be it.
Im going to commit myself to the idea of now, and embrace it. I will not to feel badly about my decisions on life changes, or apologize for them. Things happen, things change, things stay the same. Your path is different than mine. I will encourage myself, and my family to focus not on accumulating an abundance of obsolescent things...but focus more on enjoying the present, embracing change, embracing continuity, and accumulating life experiences. I will encourage them to see the many shades of green in all types of grass...and I will encourage myself to do the same =)
XO
Chelsea
(speaking of green...Happy early St. Patty's day!!)
0h Chels, I just love you and they way that you make no apologies for how you think/feel/believe. You have the best attitude towards life of anyone that I have ever met.
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LaLa
I love your positivity and ideas. I would recommend, however, that you not move within three months of Nyla being born, just because before they sit up they are ten times the work! No matter how many times you've moved, it takes a lot of attention and some stress, and she will need all the attention you have to offer at that age. But I think movement is great when they are young enough to not become attached to friends at school, etc., but consider staying in places for longer periods of time during big change times in their lives, like starting school, middle school and high school transition, etc.
ReplyDeleteHaha! Thanks Lala!! We are very similar in that sense...we are who we are...like it or not!! =) Thank you Sara!! We wouldn't think of moving anywhere far for probably a year with the baby!! But who knows!! lol Yeah I moved every year until about 6th grade and I loved it! But you have to do what fits your family...what works for some, wont work for others. Thank yall so much for reading and posting!!
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